September 11th -- Ten years later

Everyone is thinking and remembering THE September 11th today, and that's as it should be. We shouldn't forget that we were attacked by radicals from a foreign nation and we should never forget that they specifically targeted civilians. They are honorless scum, and deserve little more to be gunned down and shoved into an unmarked grave. Or buried at sea.

We should not forget those people who responded to help others that day -- whether they were professional Firefighters or just people off the street who saw a problem and helped. And we shouldn't forget that too many of them lost their lives as well.

We should never, ever forget the soldiers who were put in harm's way overseas to prove that you may NOT attack our country and walk away. We will come for you. We will find you.

Just as important as all those things, we should never forget what our politicians have done to us. How since we were attacked, they have so often done our enemy's work for them. How they've stolen our liberty and turned to fear and fostered ignorance in an effort to advance their own agendas. You'll note that I'm not naming a party here as I feel that ALL of our so-called leaders are guilty of this. Some far more than others, and it's truly criminal that they will never be tried for the treason that they committed.

It isn't just the men and women in our armed services who have a responsibility to protect our country. We who are not serving that way have a responsibility to ensure that the country those men and women return to, is a proud, free country and not one ruled by and for the elite, the politically powerful, the fear mongers or those who would see the United States turned into the very thing that bread the fanatics that attacked us in the first place: A theocracy.

I'll end this with two quotes by Thomas Jefferson:

"I believe that banking institutions are more dangerous to our liberties than standing armies. If the American people ever allow private banks to control the issue of their currency, first by inflation, then by deflation, the banks and corporations that will grow up around [the banks] will deprive the people of all property until their children wake-up homeless on the continent their fathers conquered. The issuing power should be taken from the banks and restored to the people, to whom it properly belongs. "

"History, I believe, furnishes no example of a priest-ridden people maintaining a free civil government. This marks the lowest grade of ignorance of which their civil as well as religious leaders will always avail themselves for their own purposes."

Avatar and Submissive men

 

So I just wrote my first scene with a submissive male in it. I mean, I did do one with Tina and Greg back in Chapter 41, but it wasn't really a scene. What I just wrote is, although it's kind of a scene-lite.

It was strange. I simply don't envision men in a submissive role. It's not that I think you can't be male and submissive; it's just that my brain doesn't think that way.

When I think up a BDSM scene, I'm more inclined to use women for both top and bottom. There are a bunch of reasons for this, but mainly I think it's because I'm straight. Male/male sex isn't a turn on for me, and the focus of a scene, for me, is what the bottom is going through -- so a male as a bottom isn't interesting to me. Another reason is just that, well... women can cum hard and often, and I like that. With guys, they cum, then that's that for a finite period of time. While that time may vary, one must agree that women got the prize when it comes to orgasms. Yes, I know, they got kinda shorted if you add in that period thing, but you know what I mean.

And that's one of the things that fascinate me about submissive women. You can make them cum a bunch of times, and, in the end, making them cum maybe more than they wanted to is a seriously hot thing. Because you can make a woman cum a lot more often than a man could, I think it makes them easier to train -- all things being equal.

The other thing is this idea that's been nagging me for a while, and that's living more in a sexual moment. I think that women can maintain a higher level of lust much longer than men. I'm sure this isn't a universal truth, but it certainly seems to be more true than not. And that's one of the things that I love to think about when I'm thinking about a sex slave. She's almost always turned on. Not just during an actual scene, but even when she's doing something that might not be inherently sexy. Like washing dishes while wearing cuffs, or simply being bound and left alone until her Master wants to use her. The act of being bound, of simply becoming a sexual object is a turn on for her and she's aroused. Living in the sexual moment, but making that moment extend for a long time.

I think it's possible to train a slave to live like that, but I'm sure that most people simply wouldn't be interested. Still, for those who are, it must be a serious high to be aroused that much of the time, but knowing that your ultimate pleasure is still controlled by someone else. The owner of such a slave would be a very lucky person.

Anyway, it'll be a while before this chapter is released, since it's number 54 and I just put out 51. But when it does get released, I'll probably make note of the F/m scene and see if I can get peoples' input on it.

New Chapter!

Aug 20 2011

    Well, it's three in the fucking morning, and I should be asleep.  I'm feeling tired enough, but it just ain't happenin'.  So what's a guy to do?

    POST PR0N!

    So yeah, I went and posted a chapter of Avatar.  It's getting updated more regularly now, but I still don't feel as if I'm writing fast enough.  As an author, sometimes I feel overwhelmed by the sheer amount of stuff I want to write, and the incredible lack of time I have to write it in.  Then of course, there's the fact that I'm not a professional writer (in that I don't make my living at writing), and how my other, soul destroying job makes some of the time I have to write completely nonproductive.

    But enough of that shit.

    Avatar's coming along, believe it or not.  It's slow, far, far slower than I'd like, but I'm getting more work done on it nowadays.  I'm wondering how many complaints I'm going to get because there's not enough sex in these latest chapters.  Because I got a bunch of complaints when there was too much sex.  Ah well -- some days you just can't win.

    Anyway, hope that you enjoy this latest installment and forgive the rambling shit I'm blogging with no sleep.

Service Society

Lazlo Zalezac wrote this great story on SOL called Service Society. Generally, I don't read SoL stories like this because they just don't interest me. But I like Lazlo's writing and decided to give it a try.
I wasn't disappointed. I was horrified, but not by the story or poor writing. I was horrified by how spot on the story is.
In short, it's about where our society is moving to when it comes to corporations in America. It shows how workers are losing more and more of their lives every day to corporations that use and abuse us.
We're not quite where the story is, but it wouldn't take us much to get there. And if the current crop of idiotic, screaming, whining children we call congressmen (and women) don't begin to think of the country rather than their corporate masters, we WILL be there in fewer years than I care to think.
Lazlo's story has nothing to do with politics though. It's about one man who finally has had enough and leaves the company that's destroyed his life. In the story, he doesn't view himself as a hero, and he's certainly nowhere near perfect. But he has a vision of what a real service society should look like and tries to bring it about.
So many of the concepts in this story stand out to me as common sense: Making products that work. Letting engineers, not morons from marketing -- and certainly not idiotic managers -- design and build products. Like building products that are designed to last longer than the GE mandated 3 months
I wonder what it would be like to live in a world like that? Because I have the feeling I'm never going to see it. OUR 'service society' will mean getting on our knees and sucking off our corporate masters.

Online Identity, Clouds and Google

I was totally into the whole Google Plus thing. I really was! I thought, hey, here's a place for adults. Where we could, you know, have Adult conversations and content. Unlike Facebook, who deletes you without warning for random reasons.
The concept of Circles was awesome (even though they clearly stole it from my Avatar story)! I could have other writers in my Circles. I could have fans in some Circles. I could follow people in yet more Circles. It was going to ROCK.
Then... Reality set in.
Now, I'll admit that, at the time of this writing, Google plus is in beta. But fuck, Gmail was in beta FOR YEARS, so I'm not putting too much stock into when G+ will be OUT of beta.
So, about that Reality thing. It appears, that G+ was designed for families and children only. Adult content is not welcome. And, if you post it, they could, and did, bounce your ass. Said bounce could suspend your G+ account -- and every-fucking-other account you had with Google! Your email, calendars and whatever else they felt like taking away from you.
Worse, G+ DEMANDS in the TOS that you use your real name. Oh, artists are allowed to use an alias, but I'm pretty sure it's still supposed to be linked to your real name.
That is total bullshit.
Since there were TONS of discussions dealing with this topic, and several articles written on it, I'm not going to go into great depth here, other than to say that these two ... problems ... make G+ even less suitable for my needs than Facebook.
And here's where the inline identity thing comes in. Dark Pen is my online identity -- or one of them, anyway. But it's the name I write under, the name that writing is known by and I had damned good reasons for not writing under my real name. I'm not going to tie the Dark Pen name to my real name because Google doesn't understand people's reasons for privacy.
Since Dark Pen is an alias, I'm going to remove myself from G+ before they come along and discover I've broken their terms of 'service' and delete all my stuff. Or lock it out and force me to reveal to them who I really am to get it back. 
Yes, I know they could pretty easily track me down. But currently, they have no reason to, and I'd like to keep it that way.
I was trying to get a following on Blogger (which was failing miserably), but then I realized that THAT was a Google product. So. I'll leave that blog alone. I'll put in something saying that I've moved to Wordpress (although I'm still maintaining my LJ account -- where people actually comment and respond to me) and plan to continue here. I will set up pop to download my Gmail, and I've already pulled all my Gmail contacts into Hotmail.
I don't plan to boycott Google -- something that would be almost impossible anyway. And, if they get their shit together and acknowledge the rights of adults, I'll return to G+. But for now? I think it's better not to trust the 'Cloud' with my data (not that I ever did, really) and not to keep all my online eggs in one basket.
Links to Violet Blue's excellent articles on the current state of Google +:
google-plus-fast-cheap-and-out-of-control
google-plus-deleting-accounts-en-masse-no-clear-answers

Avatar Book 2 Chapter 50!

Well, I've just posted the 50th chapter of Avatar, book 2. Fifty chapters. That's gotta be a milestone, right? Some kind of, I dunno... something.

It's not finished though. But unlike last time when I got to 50 chapters, I'm not starting a new Establishment book. Two's more than enough.

Honestly, I thought I'd be finished by now, but I didn't realize just how many plotlines I have running. It's not as if I don't have an ending for them, but it's more work than I expected to weave everything together and make it fun to read.

Lately, I've run up against something that I hadn't expected: What to do about a character. See, there is a set number of people who will be part of the Founding Circle, and I thought I had all of them. In fact, I was so certain of it, that I have six chapter (that's thirty THOUSAND words) written about the character already. And now I don't know if I'll be able to use it, because I don't know if that character is going to be part of the First Circle. I'm sure I'll finish out that char's story at some point, but now I'm no longer sure when that'll be.

There's another character that I introduced a while ago, who's been showing up a fair amount, and I don't know what to do about that one either. At least as far as adding said character to the Founding Circle.

I've had a number of people ask if I'm going to finish Avatar. The answer is 'Yes'. Establishment is going to be finished. After all these years of writing it, it would annoy me if I didn't finish it. I used to be able to post a chapter a week. Now I'm down to one a month, which is up from the number of times I posted in the last two years. For that you have my apologies -- but as you've read in my posts, life ain't been all the great. Still isn't, but I'm trying not to let it interfere with my writing.

Speaking of which, I sent off something to Totally eBound a while ago. I haven't heard back from them yet , but when I do, I'll let you know. I think it's a good piece -- although they might not agree. I don't seem to have much luck with the more main stream publishers. However, even if they don't like it, I'm going to post it for sale on Amazon. That should be interesting, at the very least.

More Avatar!

Yup, I’m putting up another chapter of Avatar today.  Other than that, I really don’t have a hell of a lot to blog about.  Oh, I could rant on politics, but … naaa.  Don’t feel like it.

I know that people are seeing this on LJ, but since no one is following me on blogger, I’m wondering if I should continue to blog here.  I like the platform better, but LJ is where all the people seem to look for me.  Maybe I’ll write and post some short stories or hot tasty scenes to blogger to try and draw some people in.

Anyway, there should be a new Avatar chapter up today.  Good reading all!

New Avatar Chapter up!

 

Yup, got a nice, new chapter up on SOL.  I was going over it one last time this morning, and I have to say if you’re looking for this chapter to move the plot along, well, you’re going to be a bit disappointed.  There’s just a lot of that sex stuff.  You know, girl/girl, guy/girl… that kinda thing.

Speaking of sex stories, I did a little rooting around on Amazon for ‘BDSM Erotica’.  There’s a lot of it there, and I should state that since I only bought 4 books, my sampling is pretty light.  Unfortunately, so was the reading.

Okay, the first book I read was pretty good.  It was called Dangerous Cravings by Evangeline Anderson.  Overall it wasn’t a bad book.  There was an interesting plot -- plain but interesting -- with a slight twist, and a few decent BDSM scenes.  But they were very few.  Mostly, the book described the problems the two characters were having overcoming their interest in such a dirty, dirty thing like BDSM. 

The woman, of course, NEEDED a bit of BDSM, but was horribly embarrassed about it.  The man didn’t have the foggiest idea what it was all about, at least until he did a investigation into it.  I won’t tell how the book ended, but it was a romance novel, so I’m sure you can guess.

One thing all of the books I read had in common?  The woman had some hangups in her background and BDSM was the way she dealt with it.  Because it’s obvious that NO ONE would ever engage in that kind of sex unless they were already fucked up in the head.

What these books all lacked, in my humble opinion, were any really hot, descriptive BDSM scenes.  It was all ‘sliding into her warm tunnel’ kinda stuff.  Yes, occasionally there were actual dirty words.  Fuck was used.  And (I hope you’re sitting down for this) even the word cunt once or twice.  But overall I’d have to say the sex was lukewarm in all of them – what there was of it.

I won’t name the other three books I bought – two of which were so bad I couldn’t even finish them.  I had to wonder though, if this is where America gets its idea of what BDSM sex is like.  I also have to wonder if this is ACTUALLY what BDSM sex is like for most people.  Doesn’t seem to be from those I know in the scene, but maybe I’m totally wrong about that.

If I ever put anything up on Amazon – and I’m considering it – it sure as hell isn’t going to be mild spanking story with the sex only hinted at.  It’s going to be a story with plot and dirty, filthy sex acts, lovingly described in lurid detail.  And BDSM.  LOTS of BDSM.

Sadly, it won’t be under the Dark Pen name though.

Anyway, if you have a commercial story that came off of Amazon that you thought was hot, please let me know.  And enjoy this latest chapter of Avatar.

Seeing about Windows Live Writer.

Okay, since for the foreseeable future, I’m going to be maintaining two blogs, I think I’ll try out this software.  We’ll see if it actually works to post to two different blogs.

Whew!

Well now that was fun.  When I started considering a moving my blog from LJ to here, I tried setting up Darkpen.blogspot.com.  For some reason, I was unable to do that.  So, I ended up with Dark-Pen.blogspot.com.  I didn't really like the dash, but whatever.

Today I discovered that I could, indeed, access and use darkpen (no dash), so I figured I'd just transfer what little I had from dark-pen.  That went... not very well.  Wasted a lot of time.  In the end, I just re-created the one post that had been on dark-pen.  I also recreated one post that had been on LJ that I wanted to make sure I didn't loose.  It's depressing, but whatev's.  At the moment, I still have no idea how to import content from LJ to here.  I kinda like this platform better, but I have, as yet, no followers and no communities here.  Hopefully, I'll get some at some point.

So... full speed ahead.